Grace Upon Grace

Tonight I sat in a living room with roughly 15 amazing people and to me, it was such a sweet experience. I say this because nights like tonight are needed so often and yet they don't occur enough. I remember about three weeks ago I was at my breaking point. Mentally, emotionally, spiritually, I was just so ready to give up and throw in the towel and just take a humongous step back.  I sat on my porch with one of my roommates and as we looked out to see the city lights mixed with the starry sky, I remember her saying "When you want to give up- just remember that He brought you here for a purpose. If you haven't fulfilled that purpose then it isn't over yet." The words came in one ear and went out the other and what I thought was just a moment, for days after that night, those words just echoed in my ears.  I finally got to a point where I just couldn't pretend that I was okay. I know I wear my emotions on my sleeve but when people who don't even know me,not

“ In the quiet, in the stillness I know that you are God. In the chaos, in the confusion- I know you're  sovereign still. In the moment of my weaknesses, you give me grace to do your will.” When I remember the moment that I knew with every fiber in my being that Jesus was real, He wasn’t just a man on a piece of paper that I heard stories about, but He was a man that walked in grace and loved unconditionally with no expectation in return. He feared nothing and He pursued me with all relentless acts of unselfishness, yet I was so selfish and not interested in pursuing him, I found that my life had changed. When I knew that he was not passive; He was confrontational and aggressive yet compassionate and willing to do anything for those that He loved, I found that I wanted to be like him. I wanted to become him. With every ounce of my life, I wanted to “ooze Jesus.” I grasped the understanding of “walking the talk” and understanding what the wandering and wilderness was all