Deceit // Grace // Post Season Baseball
I tell myself that by writing this, it should make me feel better. It should make me clear my head and cause me to get things out in the open. So we shall see if that actually works. I've kept my mouth shut for 21 days. I've maintained my composer and I've kept a good attitude. I had decided that the best thing for me to do was to keep my lips sealed, hold the anger within, and not say how I feel and not vent. But, I couldn't do that forever. Eventually you will break if you hold it all inside. I look at pictures, I hear conversations, I read text messages, I see posts, and it makes me cringe on the inside. And in all honesty, I was tired of my friends asking me what was wrong, as I said nothing and then smiled after they said that they didn't believe me. Cringe : (verb) to draw back as with fear or pain. To shatter and recoil. I'm not an angry person. I don't live in guilt. But I do question myself, often. I question decisions