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More Surgical Tape... Please.

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I opened another package of surgical tape tonight and yesterday, I bought two more bottles of sterile wound wash. It’s funny because every time I buy another set of tape, or gauze or wound wash, I silently wonder if it is going to be the last set of “wound care items” that I am going to need. I’m not going to lie- sometimes it feels super defeating when I have to go to the store, again. But looking back at the last 27 days, I am not sure if I would trade it or wish it away.  “You are not surprised by this. God, you are not surprised by this.” Other than telling myself, out-loud, to not pass out and to get to my phone, and saying the name of Jesus over and over again, all I would allow myself to say was those words: “You are not surprised by this. You are not surprised by this. You are with me.” It happened so fast. So freaking fast. I don’t even know necessarily what happened other than it was just a freak accident that I never saw coming.  But isn’t that just like l
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My Dear 33

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For as long as I can remember, my birthday has been filled with lots of sunshine and warm weather. Of course, with the exception of one year, my 18 th , it actually snowed. Thanks, Michigan. But other than that, it has been sunny and warm almost every May 1 st . This year, not the case whatsoever. Well, I guess May 1 st  hasn’t happened yet this year, but I am just going off the “weather report”. It almost feels more like May should be April with all of the showers we’re going to have the next 10 days. Anywhoo.  I say all that to say, it has stormed all day today and it is supposed to storm and rain the next several days and I am so excited.  SO EXCITED . There is something about rain that I really, really love. And honestly, I could be really selfish and say all this rain is for me, I know it isn’t, but just go with me for a moment. Rain brings cleansing. It brings refreshing. It means old things washing away and new things coming to life. One season ending and a new season comin
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Hard Questions and Heart Surgeries

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I recently was doing a devotional and the prompt at the end was, “What are you scared to ask God about? What question do you need to say out loud right now?” I read those words several times and I even actually got up from the table that I was sitting at and went and walked around the cabin I was staying in. I don’t know why, but even thinking about that question began to intimidate me.  WHAT ARE YOU SCARED TO ASK GOD ABOUT? WHAT DO YOU NEED TO ASK AND SAY OUT LOUD? I randomly putz around the house, cleaned the kitchen, and then I came back to the table. I pulled the chair out, grabbed my journal and a pen, and tried to come up with some generic questions that I should maybe seriously consider asking, and then I just stopped. I looked up and glanced out the window and just said it- “God, I don’t know why this is so hard for me, but what is it that I need to ask you? Will you please reveal to me what it is that I need to place in your hands and ask you about? Why is this so har
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The Year of All Years: 2018

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Well, hello December. Where did you come from? I remember as a kid, my momma would always say “Remember this now, because as you get older, time only flies.” She also said that bellbottoms and fashion would make it’s rounds again, and well, here we are. And she wasn’t lying. But seriously, how is it December 11 th ? --- Yes, I am aware that today is December 30th. I started writing this on December 11 th . And then tried again on December 22 nd . And yeah, well, here we are. ---  I feel like yesterday, I was writing my 2017 end of the year blog and here I am writing my 2018 end of the year blog. So much unplanned has happened. So much didn’t happen that I thought would happen. But yet, so much did in fact happen! Whew!  My word, well words for 2018 were “stewardship & fulfillment”. My prayer is that I stewarded well what was laid in my hands and along my path, and most importantly, I pray that regardless of how things did or didn’t go, I pray that as the year ends, tha
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